{"id":924,"date":"2012-10-25T18:01:38","date_gmt":"2012-10-25T16:01:38","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/?p=924"},"modified":"2012-12-12T18:15:44","modified_gmt":"2012-12-12T16:15:44","slug":"mourn-after-malady-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/?p=924","title":{"rendered":"Mourn after Malady"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Mourn<\/p>\n

Was empfinde ich beim Reisen? Freiheit, wenn das nicht so kitschig w\u00e4re. Leere.
\nIch kann mir vorstellen, wie man seine Identit\u00e4t wechseln m\u00f6chte und kenne Geschichten. Der Baron auf seiner Kanone. Der K\u00f6nig als Penner und ein Penner, der regiert. Wenn ich \u00fcberlege, ist es aber eher das Gegenteil: keine Identit\u00e4t. Ich m\u00f6chte an einem Ort sein, ohne ich zu sein. Menschen um mich herum, zu denen ich keine Verbindung habe. Fremd sein. Leben, ohne das zu definieren. Nicht wissen, was ich hier mache. Existenz romantisieren und banalisieren. M\u00f6glichkeiten haben und sie nicht nutzen. Vor allem auch Ungewissheit auf Zeit. Urlaub von mir. Ich will Etwas gewinnen und verlieren, um dann diese Melancholie zu sp\u00fcren, die Gef\u00fchle ansp\u00fclt und sie wieder forttreibt.<\/p>\n

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What do I perceive while travelling? Freedom, if it wasn\u2019t that kitschy. Emptiness.
\nI can imagine how one would want to change his identity and know the stories. The baron on top of his canon. The king being a hobo, and a hobo who reigns. When I think about it, it turns out to be rather the contrary: no identity. I want to be at a place without being me. People around me that I don\u2019t have any connection with. Alien. Living without defining it. Not knowing what I\u2019m doing here. Romanticising and trivialising existence. Facing possibilities and not using them. Most of all, uncertainty sine die. Vacation from myself. I want to win something and lose in order to sense this melancholy eventually, which washes up feelings and carries them away again.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Was empfinde ich beim Reisen? Freiheit, wenn das nicht so kitschig w\u00e4re. Leere.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":919,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[23],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/924"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=924"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/924\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1093,"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/924\/revisions\/1093"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/919"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=924"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=924"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/supersushiwarriors.visitors-j.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=924"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}